Why? (Part 2)

I've realized another reason to hike the PCT: To let go of the lingering anxiety of selling the business I had with my partner.

First off, I'm fucking damn happy to not have the hourly and daily and weekly and monthly and quarterly and annual stresses that come from owning and running a bar. I used to watch shows like "Kitchen Nightmares" and "Bar Rescue" in my spare time; a bit like the Bus Driver's Holiday. After selling the bar, I couldn't watch them anymore; too much anxiety from a business I was no longer in. Yesterday, I turned on an episode of "Kitchen Nightmares" just to see if I could stomach it now. It was fine; no stress, but in the about 5 minutes I watched (an owner fired an employee for, well, being a shit) I was struck by how much I just do not miss that bullshit. So, I'm glad we don't have that anymore.

Still, every time I see a Facebook post from the person we sold the bar to or a post about the new bar, I have negative feelings. I try to not care about what the guy who bought it does with it. (Currently, he's started illegally serving food.) But I still have to fight the desire to bring it down.

(Ok, some background. We were not treated very fairly by the buyer. We made concessions that we just didn't have to, but thought we'd treat him the way we'd want to be treated. He did not do the same, in our opinion.)

Maybe on the long hike--rather, the series of consecutive day hikes--I can try to let go some or all of those negative feelings and really be able to say that I don't care what he does with the place.